blah feelings.

It’s been eons since I last wrote and as always when I neglect my blog for months & months, a lot has happened. I’ve traveled to Europe & Canada twice, my family has been down for a visit, I finished another set of classes, and I have come across some major hiccups with my school program. To make a long story short, due to someone else’s error, I have another 2 years left of classes. One year of waiting for the program & another year in the program. Now I have to take the program in Oakland and travel even further from home. I cried and cried and cried and cried when I found out the news; yes, it’s not the end of the world but it’s yet another year of no money, another year of waiting, another year of what the hell am I doing?! A lot of days, I’m excited about this new direction in life but some days, I’m scared beyond belief. Five years ago, I never imagined I’d be where I am today… From the start of my education degree, I said I couldn't see myself in a traditional classroom as a traditional instructor that I wanted to specialize after... but sometimes this new direction feels so different. I just hope I’m doing the right thing. sigh.

I enjoyed my time in Calgary immensely. I adore one of my close friends that still lives there and I miss her like crazy; it felt so amazing to finally catch up and hang out again. The past few times I’d been to Calgary, it had been during the winter/spring… I must admit it was a bit harder to leave after visiting in the summer. Amazing friends & family, beautiful mountain views, delicious food, Banff trips, etc. are harder to leave when they’re experienced in plus 30 degree weather than during minus 20 degree-catch hypothermia-plug your car in-weather!

I just need to keep hanging on. Everything will find a way to work itself out – eventually.