uh, yeah that was dumb.

I'm going to be upfront - this post is likely going to be controversial. Especially coming from a "teacher" and someone who's heart is in wanting to educate people about important stuff. And well, I also like to think of myself as an understanding and compassionate person. [[aside: I wanted to take out my instructor today for laughing about a student who came to her and confided that he wanted to commit suicide after breaking up with his girlfriend of 6 weeks --- she had the entire class laughing and WTF.ing AAAAND then she went on to say she saw a picture of his ex-girlfriend and that she was U-G-L-Y; definitely nothing to kill yourself over----- WHERE'S THE COMPASSION?!!!???]]

ANYWAY...... the point of this post is to make clear that stupid questions do exist. It's been 3 days since the start of my (waiting to get into an academic Nursing program) classes. Here is just a sampling of the questions I have heard at my community college:
o What happens if a person is in an accident and they lose their sex organs -- are they male or female?
o What do you say to someone that is using you?
o I've heard of gonorrhea, what is it?
o What does adverse mean?

I'm keeping a list at the back of my book in order to keep me distracted from laughing. But honestly, I'm sad and appalled. I'm not saying that I'm better than these people but I worry greatly about our future as a country & a planet.

you could be a part-time model.

It's a little bit funny how now that I'm getting into the thicker, dirtier, scarier Nursing courses that I'm starting to see myself in some of the pages of my textbooks. My Pathophysiology text has become notorious for this... ouch, my back hurts maybe I'm developing _________. My joints hurt today I wonder if this means I have ________. That tingly feeling in my toes, the imperfections of my skin, my chronic fatigue at times must all mean lead to a diagnosis of ___________.

And no, I do not have hypochondriasis.

I have a minor in Psychology & for a long while I use to want to be a counselor before deciding upon teaching. I use to come home after Abnormal or Clinical Psych and diagnosis my dog and brother with all sorts of random disorders. My dog definitely had conduct disorder (poor thing) and well my brother fit into many disorders on many different days. But really we all do. Every abnormal or clinical psych course I ever took was always prefaced by the professor on how to not panic when you see yourself in parts of each disorder.

I have become fascinated by how detailed every function of the human body is and how everything is incredibly interconnected. Many days I find myself cursing that we know so much and that I have to memorize such insane details; that if I was doing this 50 years ago or even 20 years ago when we didn't know as much, that studying would be so much easier. However, at the same time, there's a tremendous amount of knowledge that we don't know. But, in full disclosure, I am glad we know more information then we did 20 years ago (except for studying purposes)... I doubt I'd be here today if it weren't for all the knowledge that's been come by in the past few decades... I've had many close calls especially with my allergies and even now I'm anxious to get back to the doctor at the end of this month to find out if things are healing inside me since some of my tissue has decided to do some pretty crazy things and scare me & my doctor. But it's alright.. I'm alright. At least I have pages of textbooks to arm me with knowledge and an appreciation for my body that can handle it.

My real classes start in less than a week. I always have a love/hate relationship with this time of year. It should be interesting!